Happy National Coming Out Day
In celebration of coming out day, I wanted to share part of my coming out story. Here goes...
Dec 2, 2017 - I woke up Saturday morning feeling extremely sad and somewhat sick to my stomach. I had been trying for days to cram the feelings back down in myself but for various reasons they had been bubbling back up. I was doing some work and listening to music when I heard a song by Wrabel called 11 Blocks. I liked the song for a while so I decided to find more of his music. One of his top songs was a song called “The Village”. I started listening to it and instantly knew it was a song about a youth struggling similar to the way I’ve struggled my entire life. I decided to look for a video and I found it. The video confirmed my thoughts about the song and after watching the video I went downstair in the bathroom and started crying uncontrollably. The song is about a transgender youth struggling with his sexual identity which hit so close to home as I have struggled with my sexual orientation my entire life. After a few minutes I composed myself and went back into the kitchen. I feel like from that point on I knew it was going to come out of me eventually, I just didn’t know when. This was the first time in my life that I realized I wasn’t going to take the truth with me to my grave. I remember taking Chloe for a walk around the block and listening to the song again and again and crying the entire time.
It was later that night that I told Alison and eventually over the past 10 months I've told virtually everyone else in my world. I still find times when I'm forced to decide whether to out myself or answer a question in a way that doesn't feel right.
Coming out is something that is hard no matter what age you are and is something that takes courage. I have been so fortunate to have supportive family and friends. I wish that same support for others that are coming out. If you or anyone you know is ever in need of someone to talk to, please know you are not alone.